Friday, September 29, 2006

Road Less Travelled

We studied this poem long long ago in English class and as I listened to my teacher explain the profound meaning behind the lines and interpret it so eloquently, I knew this was something that would remain very close to me. English class was definitely a favorite time of day but of course lunch break was the uncontested winner! Lunch boxes of friends with so many different varieties of food waiting to be tried - was there even a contest there?

Looking back, seems like I have been real lucky to have had fantastic language teachers from grade school through college. They brought with them so much knowledge, a great love for the language, its nuances and of course they were all well versed in English literature. Most times we had so much difficulty just keeping with the flow of their thoughts and scribbling furiously next to the line they were explaining in depth. The pages where the text book had poems especially would be almost impossible to make sense of. There was so much crammed scribbling on the free space to ensure I would not forget a certain meaning or explanation.

Sometimes they picked volunteers to interpret a line and if by chance it was me, I wonder how I kept my wits around me and said something that actually made sense. On top of it, if the teacher complimented me on it - it was a red letter day in the history books of course!

Robert Frost sure knew how to write about such deep subject matter using simple words that hit home every time I pore over the lines. I cant seem to remember when I read this poem for the first time but every single time, the words strike a chord without fail.

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth

Then took the other as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet, knowing how way leads onto way
I doubted if I should ever come back

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence
Two roads diverged in a wood
And I took the one less traveled by
And that has made all the difference

Robert Frost

Thursday, September 28, 2006

Rain, rain, go away...no, no, stay (for a bit anyway)

It started off as a beautiful autumn day though it was quite hot and then...the rain came down. The air smelt like fresh earth, which was drinking in the water everywhere the drops hit the ground. I had quite forgotten how intoxicating it is to just savor the coolness in the air and promptly filled my lungs with the indescribable aroma - so crisp and clean. The grey skies, the trees sagging under the weight of the raindrops, the breeze blowing - all I wanted to do was crawl under the blankets, read a good book with some hot coffee in hand (ok I wanted some tasty bajjis too), contemplate about stuff but work beckoned.

I do remember the rain on the streets of Bangalore when us kids would be walking home from school after the rains, the ditches running alongside the road would be filled with gushing water. Some days it would rain so much that water stagnated on the roads, getting inside the shoes and soaked up our socks! We put our note book papers to good use though by making paper boats and racing them in the ditches to see whose boat would be carried the farthest without sinking. A short trip home could turn into a half hour fun-filled walk - who cared about falling sick when it was so much fun to get soaked by the rain water! These days the first thing that comes to mind is that my car is going to get a much needed wash - ha ha!

Reminds me of a funny incident (well, it didnt seem so funny when it happened) when it rained and I got down from the autorickshaw. I was quite close to the street when this big truck drove by so fast that all the water piled up on the side of the road splashed on me in one big wave! I had seen this happen in commercials or movies and it cracked me up everytime to see a poor soul get drenched but when it happened to me, I was not so thrilled. All I wanted to do was run after the truck and do some bodily harm to the driver. Once I dried myself off, I saw the funny side.

Last summer on a day trip,we were passing through this beautiful stretch of the countryside, fields on both sides bursting with yellow sunflowers. Anywhere I looked, there were moutains in the distance, green fields mixed with big patches of yellow. I clicked pictures of everything in sight - the mountains, the fields, the bees that seemed to be dozing contentedly in the middle of the big flowers. Then the rain came down and I had to run to the car. I cant ever forget the vivid contrast of colors I saw that day. The dark grey sky, the shadowy mountains, the dark green fields and of course the beautiful yellow sunflowers. Wonder where the bees went when the heavens came down...hmmm.

Here is H.W.Longfellow's poem called "Rain in summer" I studied a long time ago and remembered when it rained today.

How beautiful is the rain!
After the dust and heat,
In the broad and fiery street,
In the narrow lane,
How beautiful is the rain!

How it clatters along the roofs,
Like the tramp of hoofs
How it gushes and struggles out
From the throat of the overflowing spout!

Across the window-pane
It pours and pours;
And swift and wide,
With a muddy tide,
Like a river down the gutter roars
The rain, the welcome rain!

The sick man from his chamber looks
At the twisted brooks;
He can feel the cool
Breath of each little pool;
His fevered brain
Grows calm again,
And he breathes a blessing on the rain.

From the neighboring school
Come the boys,
With more than their wonted noise
And commotion;
And down the wet streets
Sail their mimic fleets,
Till the treacherous pool
Ingulfs them in its whirling
And turbulent ocean.

In the country, on every side,
Where far and wide,
Like a leopard's tawny and spotted hide,
Stretches the plain,
To the dry grass and the drier grain
How welcome is the rain!

In the furrowed land
The toilsome and patient oxen stand;
Lifting the yoke encumbered head,
With their dilated nostrils spread,
They silently inhale
The clover-scented gale,
And the vapors that arise
From the well-watered and smoking soil.
For this rest in the furrow after toil
Their large and lustrous eyes
Seem to thank the Lord,
More than man's spoken word.

Near at hand,
From under the sheltering trees,
The farmer sees
His pastures, and his fields of grain,
As they bend their tops
To the numberless beating drops
Of the incessant rain.
He counts it as no sin
That he sees therein
Only his own thrift and gain.

These, and far more than these,
The Poet sees!
He can behold
Aquarius old
Walking the fenceless fields of air;
And from each ample fold
Of the clouds about him rolled
Scattering everywhere
The showery rain,
As the farmer scatters his grain.

He can behold
Things manifold
That have not yet been wholly told,--
Have not been wholly sung nor said.
For his thought, that never stops,
Follows the water-drops
Down to the graves of the dead,
Down through chasms and gulfs profound,
To the dreary fountain-head
Of lakes and rivers under ground;
And sees them, when the rain is done,
On the bridge of colors seven
Climbing up once more to heaven,
Opposite the setting sun.

Thus the Seer,
With vision clear,
Sees forms appear and disappear,
In the perpetual round of strange,
Mysterious change
From birth to death, from death to birth,
From earth to heaven, from heaven to earth;
Till glimpses more sublime
Of things, unseen before,
Unto his wondering eyes reveal
The Universe, as an immeasurable wheel
Turning forevermore
In the rapid and rushing river of Time.

Saturday, September 16, 2006

Since the last time I blogged..
Last Sunday morning, I felt the tremors of a 6.0 earthquake that started in the Gulf of Mexico! The coffee table started shaking and I didnt think too much about it till I read later that evening that the tremors were felt quite widely.

The blood drive at work went off great especially considering there were people who signed up but simply didnt show up to donate. However, we did pretty good and collected 45 pints (goal was 49) although I am still bummed out abt the fact that I couldnt donate this time either. I volunteered at the drive and met these two wonderful ladies from the Red cross who are retired but donate their time generously to Red Cross activities. I heard stories from them about how different things were when they were growing up and how everything was so much more affordable than what it is now. However the highlight for me has got to be - there was this REALLY cute guy who walked in to donate but left almost immediately. On asking what happened, looks like he hadnt eaten breakfast and obviously they wouldnt let him donate. However he did come back before I left the drive- made my day! :)

Tasted this really awesome Roasted bell pepper and lentil soup from Panera Bread.

Heard about a pottery place that I need to check out. Maybe I will stop procastinating and actually make some of my own pottery.... I said maybe.... :)

Discovered a totally awesome pomegranate/green tea frappucino at Starbucks which I think I am going to keep drinking till I get sick of it or they stop making it. Sat on the patio outside and couldnt believe how beautiful the evening was. Clear sky, no humidity, a crispness in the air hinting that fall is just around the corner. The time of year I enjoy the most. Everything seems to slow down. Cant wait for the leaves to start changing colors.

Missed celebrating Janmasthami this year but looks like my family celebrated it with the usual enthusiasm. Its a shame I am missing all the tasty snacks mom has made. Neighbors had stopped by when I called home and I felt so bad I was not there in person to enjoy this festival which we celebrate with such grandeur year after year.

I dont know why but I was suddenly reminded of this show called "Fraggle Rock" which I used to watch way back in the 80s. It was a cool show and I remember watching it quite regularly. There was Doc and Sprocket along with Gobo and Red, the Gorgs and Uncle Matt.

Found this website dedicated to the show and now I feel like watching the show all over again. Good times!!

Saturday, September 09, 2006

I carry your heart

Don't mean to be sappy but I caught the last part of this movie called "In her shoes" and got all misty-eyed when I heard this poem.

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it (anywhere i go you go, my dear;
and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)
i fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet)
i want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)
- E.E.Cummings

Live long and prosper...

"Space, the final frontier. These are the voyages of the starship Enterprise. Its five-year mission: To explore strange new worlds. To seek out new life and new civilizations. To boldly go where no man has gone before." As I heard these words on the Sci-Fi channel a couple days ago, I could not help but remember how we kids used to religiously crowd around the b&w TV next door every Sunday morning to watch Star Trek.

It was truly a magical world filled with space ships, Vulcan mind melds, Klingons, Romulans and needless to say - a kid could not get enough! The show transported us to a world beyond imagination, where anything was possible. What shone through and stuck with us after each show ended was how well the Captain had handled difficult situations, the strong friendship he shared with his crew, the faith his crew placed in him and the decisions he made, the eternal fight between good and evil, conflict of logic/reason and emotions - always an interesting tug-of-war. Pure entertainment, thats for sure!

I could hardly wait for the next episode to air, wondering which place in the galaxy the U.S.S Enterprise, with Capt.Kirk and Mr.Spock in tow would go next. Even after all this time, I like to consider Star Trek as a pathbreaking and outstanding show. September 2006 marks the 40th anniversary of this legendary series and as tribute, if I may be so bold as to steal a line from Mr.Spock - Live long and prosper.

Friday, September 08, 2006

Perennial as the grass....

Growing up in the crowded neighborhood of Rajajinagar, especially with cousins living right next door (without even a fence separating our houses) was not so great (or so I thought) given how much they used to tease me about my curly braids and how I pored over school work. Little did they know that while I sat outside "reading", I was actually watching the neighborhood boys play cricket. Looking back though, I think we kids lucked out big time given how aware of the world they all were, especially Vasuanna.

This was back in the day before all the addictive technology of internet/email/im that makes it so tempting to connect with people, sitting with a laptop on the comfy couch, more often than meeting them face to face. Both families made ends meet but there was not much room for indulgences, yet there was lots of free time on hand (of course when I got done with school work). Well - there was one indulgence come to think of it. Books and reading! Piles of hard bound and paperback books waiting to be read, lying scattered everywhere in their house. Vasuanna is a voracious reader and I cant quite remember how or where he would buy all these books but there was always an interesting read - I just had to walk next door. The icing on the cake? Manni would give us snacks to munch on and coffee too!! Needless to say, a kid's haven till I would hear mom yell out that it was time to do homework - yuck!

There were all kinds of Kannada, Tamil and English books, spewing out knowledge if only I opened them up. I would go straight to the big colorful books with lots of pictures in them, slowly graduating to fiction and more serious reading. Ranganna was studying to become a doctor and would borrow books from the med school library. Naturally, most of his books had colorful pictures, some not so pleasant I must say but always entertaining to a curious kid especially when he made up stories about them.

I am truly grateful to this day my cousins lived next door since they were responsible for shaping our thoughts, making us dream, motivating us to always think about the more significant aspects of life. For a kid like me back in the day, some of it didnt make total sense - case in point, this poem called Desiderata. Vasuanna handed it to me one day and though the deeper significance didnt register back then, the poem stuck with me. I have had a hand-written copy of it in my diary and put it up on my cube wall everywhere I worked. Every time I read through it, I wish I were back in Rajajinagar, standing under the coconut tree, talking with Vasuanna and hearing his poignant thoughts about random topics he always seemed to know so much about! That used to be the highlight of my day since I got a break from reading my boring school books and learnt a little bit more about the bigger world out there... Here's to you Vasuanna!

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

Max Ehrmann, Desiderata, Copyright 1952.

Monday, September 04, 2006

Vivaldi-ish?

Can software come close to creating music that originated in a great composer's imagination? Can innovation and genius be translated into patterns that a computer can build off of? Will this music appeal to aficionados? I don't know a great deal about classical music but whatever little I have heard of Mozart, Beethoven, Bach etc at the ASO has clued me into the complexity and incredible vision these musicians were gifted with to compose great works that hold audiences enthralled centuries later. Even someone without knowing the nuances behind the music is able to feel the passion and intensity as the music builds towards the crescendo.

From Wired news is this interesting and thought provoking article.

The program for this year's Santa Cruz Baroque Festival lists the evening's featured composer as "David Cope (1941–)." And for once, the art world's odd way of identifying a living artist seems appropriate: Tonight, with the help of some computer code, Cope will premiere a new 12-movement piece from the mind of Antonio Vivaldi (1678–).
Cope is tall and trim, with thinning gray hair, a close beard, and a drawn face. He stands onstage in front of a tight arc of music stands and begins to tell his audience about the origins of his software, Experiments in Musical Intelligence (Emmy for short), which wrote the counterfeit Vivaldi they are about to hear.
It all started more than 20 years ago. Cope, already an accomplished musician and programmer, sat at his piano, struggling to compose a piece. Desperate for inspiration, he imagined a computer program that could suggest a clever measure or two. So he compiled a database of his compositions and wrote some code that could detect patterns in his music and compose new riffs that follow the same rules. To his surprise, he says, the results "sounded like me."
Since then, Cope has unleashed Emmy on dozens of the great composers. Until five years ago, though, he avoided Vivaldi. Like many serious fans of classical music, he found works like The Four Seasons a bit light and repetitive. "What's the joke about Vivaldi?" he asks the audience. "He wrote one piece a thousand times," a faint voice answers.
But it turned out Vivaldi's music wasn't too simple – it was too complex. In a piece that followed a seemingly repetitive ABABAB pattern, he discovered, Vivaldi would write subtle, unpredictable variations into each recurrence of familiar material. Where the human ear focuses on obvious similarities, Emmy hears each section as a brand-new twist in the melody. Only in the past couple of years has Cope figured out how to refine his code to take the variations into account. "I fell in love with Vivaldi," he laughs.
The houselights darken, and a half-dozen musicians dressed in black take the stage with violins, a viola, a violone, and a violoncello. A woman sits down at the harpsichord; another tunes a lutelike instrument called a theorbo. The audience hushes, and the ensemble begins: A single, piercing violin races through Vivaldi-esque arpeggios while the rest of the strings measure out a deep, deliberate complement. The second movement is different – slower, sadder, carried along by mournful viola. During moments of quiet beauty or apparent emotion, it is jarring to consider what the music means to Emmy – numbers, built on patterns, built on a database of more numbers.
Some classical music geeks enjoy listening for a composer's signature tendencies and picking out the flaws in Emmy's fakes. Others see the algorithms as an insult to the composer and the music. Once, at a conference in Germany where Cope presented some virtual Bach, a professor seated beside him bellowed his disapproval, declared music dead, and jabbed an accusatory finger in Cope's face.
After about 90 minutes, the performers take their bows to noisy applause. A small circle forms around Cope.
"Some of it sounded Vivaldi-ish," one woman admits, a bit grudgingly. An elderly woman calls it "wonderful."
"Some of it sounded like Pachelbel," someone else suggests. "Well, that's interesting," says Cope, "he wasn't in the database." Seeing her confusion at this remark, Cope reveals a key ingredient of virtual Vivaldi's secret recipe: works by other composers. When Emmy created music based solely on Vivaldi's oeuvre, he explains, the results sounded authentic enough, but bland. So he threw in a few pieces by baroque contemporaries such as Tomaso Albinoni and Giuseppe Tartini. Emmy's Vivaldi then began to stretch a bit, take risks, and, ironically, produce music that sounded more like the real Vivaldi.
That presents Cope with an interesting artistic dilemma. Could Emmy improve on his own musical output if he added the work of similar composers to the database? "Probably," Cope says, laughing. "But vanity will probably prevent me from trying." Of course, Vivaldi isn't around to protest. Immortality, it seems, still has its limitations.
– Douglas McGray

Sunday, September 03, 2006

Of sand sculptures and mandalas...

The Travel channel was covering a sand sculpture competition in San Diego (see here for more details). I came across it quite by accident while flipping channels this weekend. Over the span of two days, the sculptors poured in their time, effort and creativity and brought to life some amazingly complex masterpieces. The twist thrown into the fiercely competitive atmosphere? From time to time, through random selection, one of the sculptures is blown-up and the sculptors must start from scratch with whatever time is left in the competition - someone's warped sense of humor I say because a piece of art that took time to plan, was toiled over and took shape is blown back into a shapeless mound of sand in a second! The team that overcomes the odds of their hard work being blown up to smithereens right in front of their eyes (lady luck needs to favor them big time) and comes up with the best sculpture wins a prize for their efforts.

Needless to say, I cringed everytime a sculpture was being blown up :) since I can relate to what the artists might be going through when they see their work of art being destroyed right in front of them! Talk about being attached to what you created right?! Atleast - if I mess up a painting, there is always an opportunity to correct it (most times anyway) and I breathe a little easier knowing the work I put effort into is still in existence! Not so for those artists on the beaches of San Diego, toiling under the sun, creating magical and whimsical figures that started as fragments of their imagination and creativity. In addition to dealing with whatever nature throws their way (rain, strong winds etc), seems like they needed an additional challenge brought in by the organizers.

To complete the saga of blown up sculptures and disappearing works of art, eventually a winner was picked. The second prize went to a team who in fact had their first sculpture blasted to oblivion and had to start off again on a new concept and bring it to life in the remaining time.

Suddenly I was reminded of the Buddhist monks and the intricate sand mandalas they create. Millions of grains of colored sand is laid out on a flat platform which has the geometrical design of the mandala, over a period of days or even weeks. Many monks work together over a period of time to come up with the exact geometry according to scriptures and then using traditional metal funnels called chakpur, they pour the sand into the pattern. The mandala is used as a tool for re-consecrating the earth and its inhabitants.

I have some thangka paintings of mandalas and just looking at them, I can tell how much time and effort has been put into hand painting the complex, perfectly geometrical patterns. The mix of colors on each design is unique and has to be actually seen to be truly appreciated. So doing this using sand can only be more challenging, requiring skills and patience beyond my imagination. I sit in the brush painting class for a couple hours and if its not going well, I am ready to give up and come back to it another day!

Unlike the sand sculptors in San Diego who watched helplessly when their sculptures were blasted off the face of the earth, the monks deliberately - yes, deliberately dismantle the mandala once it is completed, sweeping up the sand so painstakingly laid out, symbolizing the impermanence of all that exists. This is then handed out to the people present as a blessing for health and healing.

I really shouldnt be comparing the sand sculpting competition and the mandala creation but for the fact that both are terrific endevors of art and to see them go back to being just sand is basically undoing all the effort it took to build it up so painstakingly. Makes me wonder if I could be a little bit more detached from the art I work on. In time?? Maybe....

Links to more information on mandalas:
Religion and ethics - Mandala sand painting
Art of Mandala sand painting
Sand mandala - Wikipedia